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Waiting for Inspection


We have been contacted by our foster care licensing specialists and completed our mounds of paperwork required to transition into fostering.

We have an added household member who now needs to get fingerprinted, etc… in preparation for children coming into the home.


We have completed our household preparation checklist, which includes safeguarding medications, adult beverages, weapons, or anything else needed to be out of the reach of kiddos.  We have put locks on cabinets and outlet covers are in place.  We have created and posted our emergency evacuation plan.

It is really ironic how much you do to become a foster or adoptive parent, beyond what people do who have children naturally.  I can’t imagine any of our parents or friends creating a emergency evacuation plan and posting it in the house.  I understand the purpose for great need for safety and the trust that will be put in us caring for others children if and when we are approved as foster parents.


Now we are waiting our the state inspection of our home, which will include checking for all of the safeguarding, checking our water temperature, making sure there are no hazards and we have indeed appropriately prepared our home for children.

Our new foster licensing specialist will be coming to the house to inspect and meet us as well as all our communication so far has been via phone or email.

Not sure how long the process will take with the holidays approaching.  Hoping everything goes smoothly.


The NEW Game Plan!?!?!?

What's the plan? Funny.  I haven’t posted in a year and now 2 posts in two days???  WOW!!!  I wanted the update and the new plan to be two different posts because one was kind of where we’ve been and the other is where we are going.  This one is kind of a long one but well worth the read!


When we originally started towards the process of adopting through the foster care system in October 2010.  We were discussing with our licensing specialist about fostering, foster to adopt, and adopting, what the differences were, and how we should move forward. ask-question

Placement Types

Fostering:  Bringing children into your home with the purpose of caring and loving the them, while their family has the opportunity to meet certain requirements for the them to return home.  The initial goal is always for the kids to return home or be placed with a family member if unable to go back to birth parents.  If family is unable to take the child, the foster parents have first option to adopt the child.  If the foster parents do not choose to adopt, the child is placed on the adoption registry.  This type of placement has a lot of unknowns and there is a high likelihood for reunification and having a multitude of placements before we might be able to adopt.

Foster to Adopt:  In this stage, the foster parents are not planning on adopting the child and the case plan for the child is moving for adoption.  The parental rights have not been severed yet, but reunification is unlikely.  CPS will work through the process of red file staffing and choosing an adoptive family for the child to be placed with.  With this placement type, there is less chance of the child returning home, however it is still an option.  Also, family members could be located who will take the child and you still might lose the placement and not get to adopt this child.

Adoption:  This type of placement occurs when the parental rights are already severed and the case plan is adoption.  The foster parents are not adopting, an adoptive family is selected and the child is placed with them.  This is the safest route with the smallest chance of not being able to adopt the child.

Initially, we were planning on fostering with the hopes of adopting children one day who came into our home and were unable to reunite with their birth family.  Being supportive of our ultimate goal of adoption, our licensing specialist encouraged us to start with adoption or foster to adopt.  We really wanted to add to our family as soon as possible and were willing to take the extra risk and chose Foster to Adopt as the placement type we would accept.

Foster to Adopt

From the Decision to Now: The Process & Events

We have been on the adoption registry for two and a half years now and do not have children in our home yet.  We have had a potential foster to adopt and a private adoption fall through in this timeframe.  We have also had one little girl we were contacted about but not chosen for the red file staffing.  And another child we were contacted about that we were chosen for the red file staffing but we felt the needs were beyond what we were capable of and the child needed a true stay at home parent who didn’t work.



When preparing to decide if we were going to renew our adoption certificate this year, we had many lengthy discussions about our future and plans, being in limbo, frustration, and discouragement.  We have love to give and want to experience the joy of parenting.  After previous disappointments we weren’t sure how much more we can handle.

Limbo is an awful place in between setting out on a mission and achieving the desired result. When reaching your goal is out of your control and your life is in someone else’s hands, it can be maddening!  I have been taught lesson after lesson through the process of infertility, pregnancy loss, feeling like my body is failing me and I am failing my husband, and potential adoptions not working out.

Patience is something I have been tested with over and over again, as well as releasing things, trusting in God and believing there is a plan for my life even when it seems impossible. Sometimes I would really love a flashing neon sign showing me the plan and explaining why the road has to be so rough, however I do believe everything happens for a reason.  Ultimately we have learned we are an amazing, strong people and our relationship has grown and blossomed. In August, our plan became not to renew our certificate, to let our current one run out and that would be it.  We were disappointed and did not feel we would receive an adoption placement for our preferred age range but didn’t feel changing our parameters was the right thing to do.  We have aired on the side of the cautious one, not pushing each other into anything.  I was very unsettled with this decision.  I was crying every day and not ready to accept I would never be a parent.

For quite some time I have felt called to fostering but have been resistant because I wanted less risk and more certainty.  I was feeling particularly distraught one day and while online I searched for a church I had been to a long time ago.  I found the website and I watched some sermons online.  I was having a crisis of faith and truly was seeking help, guidance, or comfort with our decision and decided to go to church the next day.  A friendly woman sat next to me. After the service she talked with me, said God told her she was to sit next to me, she asked questions, I cried, and she prayed with me.  Later she introduced me to a member who is currently fostering.  Both ladies offered support and encouragement and I felt comfortable and loved (even after crying in front of strangers).  When I got home, we had another difficult conversation where I expressed I was not done or ready to accept I would not be a parent and believed we were called to foster.  We decided to renew our adoption certificate at this time but could not come to agreement on fostering.

The unknown’s of fostering when you are hoping to adopt can be challenging.  In the process we could have the opportunity to bless multiple children and enjoy parenting even if it is for a short time.  But also know we may be faced with reunifying multiple children and not have the opportunity to adopt arise.  When we went notarize our adoption paperwork, the notary who signed our paper last year  talked to us about how he is fostering and now adopting a foster child.  He discussed his experiences, providing encouragement and answered questions.  It multiple ways, God was leading us towards what I already felt called to do.


We have decided to move towards fostering at this time.  We have completed the classes we needed but still have additional paperwork and an inspection to pass before approved.  We are both excited and nervous about our new path, and are hopeful it will lead to adoption one day. We know our family and friends share in the roller coaster ride of building our family and hope to receive the continued support of our loved ones on this new journey.

With Love,

J & M


BuN in the OvEn: Waiting for our BaBy!

Well friends, it has been quite some time since I have posted here with updates.  This year has been filled with ups and downs.  Right now I am on cloud 9, literally I went to Cloud 9 Spa and had a massage, facial, and pedicure on Friday, ahhhh!!

But truly, we are…….

Our file had not been looked at in over a year and the children being placed for adoption have been much older than we were hoping for.  We were considering our options and deciding if we were going to renew our adoption certificate.  I was approached by someone who knew we were trying to adopt to see if we were interested in speaking with someone who was pregnant and planning to place her baby for adoption.  We decided we should talk with her.  We have been chosen to be the adoptive parents of her baby BOY due next month!

and the winner is….US!!!

Today was the Red File Staffing for three precious children.  Two other couples and us were being represented at the meeting where they decided who would be the best fit, best choice to be their parents.

We are very happy to announce we were chosen to be the parents to these children!  We will be the parents to a 39 month old boy, a 20 month old boy, and a 9 month old girl. We will be going from a couple to a instant family of five!

Tomorrow we go to the Paper File.  This is a meeting where we go with our licensing specialist to meet the case manager and foster parents and anyone else whom they have asked to join us.  We will get to ask all of our questions and hear more about the kids.

At the end of the meeting we will get to see a picture of the kids!

The process is going to move very quickly and we know we will be very busy.  I am sure we will need everyone’s love, support, and understanding as we start this new journey in our lives.

Thank you to everyone who has been encouraging, helping, and loving us through this process!

Red File News Alert

Hi everyone!!

As some of you already knew, we were contacted two weeks ago and asked if we would expand our number of beds, or children we would accept, to three.  We decided we were willing to do this.  We have the room and were excited about this sibling group for a couple of reasons. There is a girl and two boys (so we will have at least one of each) and they are legally free for adoption.

As a parent waiting to be selected for kids, you don’t normally get this early call.  Usually the first call you get is when you are selected for the Red File Staffing.  At the point when we agreed to be considered for the sibling group, we only knew our file would be looked at.  We were still waiting to hear if we were selected as one of the top families for the Red File Staffing.

For those of you who need a refresher on what a “Red File Staffing” is please see my previous post: the process of selecting a family.

We have exciting news!!

We just found out today we were selected for the Red File Staffing!!!

the dream

My hubby had a dream this weekend we got a call for a placement and got a girl.

It would be nice if this was a premonition! 🙂

Of course we will let you all know if we hear anything.

Have a great week!!

food allergy experiment

I have had problems with environmental allergies since childhood.  The last couple of years it has become increasingly worse.  The past year has been the worst year, with random breakouts in hives, this spring my face has been breaking out in hives a couple of times a month! It is very rare when I can actually breathe through my nose and I have had 3 sinus infections since January.

My husband has been encouraging me the last couple years to get allergy tested.  I put it off because he has teased me saying he was sure I am allergic to tomatoes and if so he would never let me eat them again.  I know he has wanted this because it would then squash my love for mexican food, especially salsa.  As you have read in my previous post, I have started to consider myself a connoisseur of salsa because I love it so much.  I have my favorite mexican restaurants everywhere I go.

I have been contemplating starting a second blog just to talk about my love of salsa and margaritas.  I would share pictures of the salsa and margaritas from each place I tried and write a review of what I think of it.  I tried to talk my hubby into trying one new place each week, he laughed, rolling his eyes saying he hoped I had someone else to go with.

Years ago I used to make homemade salsa and bring it to work for coworkers.  My coworkers loved it so much they actually asked me to jar it and sell it to them and I did.  I had to stop making it because I hand cut all of the vegetables and my hands were breaking out and burning like they were on fire when I was cutting the tomatoes.  So my husband’s belief of a tomato allergy was not totally unfounded.

I know being a nurse I should know better but who would ever want to admit they are allergic to one of their favorite things.  Especially if their husband is threatening them with cutting them off of this substance!

Due to my allergies being so much worse this year and being miserable, I finally broke down and made an appointment with an allergist.  I saw her for the first time 3 1/2 weeks ago.  Because my allergies have been so bad she didn’t want to take me off of my allergy medicine for 5 days to do the skin testing so she opted to do serum testing.

Today I went to the allergist and got the results of my serum allergy tests.  I found out I am allergic to some molds, every grass, weed, and all trees except mulberry trees, cats and dogs (I have 3 dogs and I am not giving my babies up!)  I am also allergic to carrots, peanuts, corn, potatoes, mango, melons, apples and tomatoes.  ARGH!!!!!

She recommends skin testing to double-check a couple allergies in July, after the bulk of the allergy season is over.  This is because I have had reactions to shellfish and shellfish did not show me reacting on the serum testing.  In six weeks I go back, get skin testing done, see the doctor again and begin allergy shots to work on this issue.  The shots are once a week for six months and than once a month for four years and then I should be immune to the allergies.

What was my response to the new information I obtained at the allergists office?  I called my mom and said,”Hey, I’m allergic to tomatoes! Want to meet me for mexican food for lunch?”  Yes, the stubbornness in me won out.

Prior to going to the allergist, I have done some research about food allergies because I had seen something on TV discussing how food allergies make you overweight.  When you eat something you are allergic to, it causes a histamine release and endorphin release in your body.  You in turn begin to crave what you are allergic to because your body craves the endorphin release, just like an addicts body would crave the drug (substance of their choice) which causes this same effect.  So, you eat the substance, than crave the substance and eat it again and again.  Meanwhile your body is in this constant state of inflammation from being exposed to the substance you are allergic too.  This results in overeating, chronic inflammation, and being overweight.


I was contemplating the information I have researched about food allergies, how much it will stink not eating the things I like and the fact I have six weeks before going back to the allergists and starting treatment.  I wondered if I would feel better avoiding these foods and thought it might be fun to do an experiment and see if the information I researched is correct.  Being a nurse I find things interesting and the information I found makes a lot of sense.  I asked two doctors about my findings one said she wasn’t sure it was true and the other said it made a lot of sense and could be true.

So, why not make myself the test subject and try it out.  What do I have to lose ~ other than suffering from not enjoying my favorite foods because oh yes my favorite fruits and vegetables are all on the allergy list!  I may feel better eliminating the foods I am allergic to and since I do carry around a few extra pounds, I may get the added benefit of losing a few while conducting this experiment.

So starting tonight with dinner, until my doctors appointment on July 20, 2011, I am going to avoid all of the things listed on my food allergy list and see what happens.  This will be the longest my husband has gone without mexican food in the 15 years we have been together!  I suppose we could have mexican food, but what is mexican food without salsa??? Not worth having!

Over the next six weeks you may hear me ranting about how tortured I am not having my favorite things and we will see what July 20 brings.  Let the experiment BEGIN!

the process of selecting a family

We have learned a lot preparing to adopt through the foster care system.  Prior to our classes, the image I had of foster care adoption was what I had seen on TV or in movies.  I envisioned visiting a facility where kids were playing, looking at the children, getting to play with them, and selecting the child we thought would be right for our family.  I thought of all of our visits to the pound or pet stores, when it is hard to select just one animal.  They all look so precious and cute and how would you ever choose.  I don’t mean this in an insulting way, I do not think the children are like animals.  I have so much love to share, I imagine myself wanting to take them all home and this is the same feeling I have when I look at my dogs.  I love them to bits!

Recently in a TV show, “Army Wives”, they portrayed almost this exact image.  The family went to the facility and met the children.  The case worker had a child in mind for them but they did go to a facility where they saw children playing.  I know it is a TV show but I found it frustrating how simple they made the process look.  They decided to adopt and within a day or two were meeting kids, then within a very soon after they were bringing the boy home to live with them. There was no talk of classes, or preparation needed before bringing a child home.  

There is a multi-step process to how you are selected to be the adoptive parents in the foster care system.

First I need to explain there are three different types of care through the foster care system.  Fostering, Foster to Adopt, and Adoption.  Fostering is when the court goal for the children is reunification with their birth family and the foster family cares for them during this time.  If the court goal changes to termination of parental rights, the child’s case worker would ask the foster family if they would want to adopt the child.  If not, the next step would be a foster/adoptive home. These parents want to adopt but are willing to take children who are not yet legally free for adoption.  In this stage there is still a chance the children will go back to their birth family. When parental rights are terminated, if a child is not going to be adopted by their foster family, or has not already been placed in a foster/adopt home, this is when an adoptive family will be sought.

The process for a foster placement is different from for an adoptive placement.  We are looking for a foster to adopt placement.  I will explain the process we will be going through. Right now we are certified, on the adoption registry and waiting to be selected for a red file staffing.


When looking for a foster/adopt family or adoptive family, the case worker will look through the registry for a family who is willing to take the age, sex, race, and specific needs the child has.  They will pull the family files which are matches and look through the home studies.  The case worker selects which families they feel may be a good fit and they want to learn more about.

The case worker contacts the licensing agency of the families to ask if the families are interested.  At this point our licensing specialist will contact us, give us the minimal information they know about the child or children and ask if we are interested.  Of course we are!! 🙂

The next step is the Red File Staffing Meeting.  Our licensing specialist attends this meeting with the representatives for the other families, the case worker, and the foster family. Other people involved in the child’s care may be there as well, for example the GAL (Guardian Ad Litem), or CASA (Court Appointed Special Advocate), or anyone else the case worker feels should be there.  Our licensing specialist brings our photo book and our file to this meeting to represent us and discuss why we would be a good fit for the child(ren).

After this meeting the case worker decides who is their first and second choice family for the child.  Our licensing specialist will call us and let us know if we are selected.  If we were selected, she will share any new information she learned about the child in the meeting. Then we will work together with her to create a list of all the questions we have about the child.

The next step is the Paper Presentation Meeting.  We will attend this meeting with our licensing specialist, the case worker, the foster family, and anyone else the case worker this should attend.  At this meeting we the case worker will tell us more about the child, we get to ask our list of questions, and at the end of the meeting we will get to see a picture of the child.  After this meeting we will have to wait 24 hours to give our decision whether or not we feel the child is right for us.

If we decide the child is right for us, the next step is the Transition Period.  The child will transition from the foster families home to our home.  This is done through a series of visits starting with visiting the child in the foster home, taking the child out for a day trip, an overnight trip to our house and eventually coming home to live with us.

Usually the child has to be in the adoptive home for 6 months prior to the adoption finalization.  Since we are doing foster to adopt and the children are not yet legally free it is still possible the child may return to the birth family and may be longer than six months before we are able to finalize the adoption.

curiosity vs. confidentiality

We all know the saying “curiosity killed the cat”.  I am sure everyone in our lives will be wondering so many things about the children we are privileged to bring home and adopt.

In adoption, probably specifically foster care adoption, there is a confidentiality clause. This is a rule to protect the children who come into our homes.

Although I am sure everyone will be curious what their story is, why they are in the foster care system, what they have been through, this is their story.  When they are older and when they are ready they can choose to share this information with whomever they choose.

J and I will know whatever information we are told but we are not allowed, nor do we feel it would be the right thing to share this information with anyone. If something specific needs to be shared with a doctor or therapist for them to treat the child they we will have to share the information but other than that we can not.

This isn’t because we don’t love you or know you would love and support our child regardless, it is to protect them and their private information.  It will give them a fresh start where everyone “doesn’t know their name”.

adoption etiquette

I read an interesting post today on a fellow blogger’s page Adventures in FosterLand.  Her post links to Single Dad Laughing’s blog about Adoption Etiquette titled “How much did YOUR kid cost?“.  Here is his list of comments or questions, which will be hurtful to adoptive children and/or their adoptive parents.  Thought it was good information to share.

Single Dad Laughing’s Guide to Adoption Etiquette. 

  1. Never, ever, ever, ask how much a child costs. This includes the phrase, “how much did you pay for him?” First of all, it’s none of your business. Second of all, if you’re interested in adoption, research it through the appropriate channels. Speak with an adoption agency. Adoptive parents don’t purchase children. They simply pay legal fees and agency fees. Just like biological parents pay hospital and doctor bills. Don’t turn the child into nothing more than a commodity.
  2. Never ask if a celebrity inspired the adoption. Believe it or not, Tom Cruise, Connie Chung, and Angelina Jolie did not convince me one way or the other in the biggest decision of my life. Are you serious?
  3. Never ask “where is his real dad?” Forget the fact that it will hurt my feelings. How do you think it will affect my son’s feelings to feel like I’m not a real dad to him? Adoptive parents are real parents. The term you’re looking for is “birth mother” or “birth father”.
  4. Don’t say things like, “as soon as you adopt you’re going to get pregnant” when you find out somebody is adopting. First of all, there are usually many, many years of pain and financial burden strapped to infertility, treatments, and heartache. Do you really think that what you’re saying will help them? Secondly, while it is funny when it happens, it’s rare.
  5. Never say, “why did she give him away?” Do I really need to explain why this one would hurt a child? The proper term is “placed”. A birth mother and birth father place their child for adoption. And again, it’s personal and none of your business, so don’t ask if you aren’t my BFF.
  6. Don’t say, “it’s like he’s your real son”. This is similar to number three, but worthy of mentioning. He is my real son, damn it.
  7. Don’t say, “do you love him as if he was your own?” Ummm… probably more than you love your little terror, that’s for sure. And again… he is my own, damn it.
  8. Never say things like, “you’re so wonderful to adopt a child”. I am a parent. Just like anybody else with kids.
  9. Don’t start spewing your horrible adoption stories. “This one time, my friend’s sister’s aunt’s dog’s previous owner’s niece adopted a baby and the real dad came back and they took the baby away after they had him for two years.” First of all, it probably isn’t true. Second of all, how would you feel if I told you about all the ways you could lose your child. Adoption is permanent. And in the extremely rare circumstances that something like that happens, it’s not something you should spread because the hurt that exists for all the parties involved must be immeasurable.
  10. Don’t say things like, “is it hard for him to be adopted?” Well, it wasn’t, until you asked me that right in front of him you freaking idiot.
  11. I don’t want to hear about your second cousin who was on a waiting list for twelve years and never got a baby. Granted, this one was much more annoying when we were going through the adoption process. Nobody wants to know that some people never get chosen. Show some kindness. Even to ugly people.

Going through our PS MAPP classes at our agency we learned a lot about things we shouldn’t say or do, things which may be hurtful to our future children and/or their birth families.  We cannot expect our friends and family members or others we don’t know to know everything we have learned.  Part of our job as adoptive parents is to help others around us understand things we have learned to help prevent painful comments being made in front of our children. I know our friends and family would never say anything to intentionally hurt us or our future kiddos.

We will love the children who come into our lives just as you love your children.  We wanted them and prayed for them just as you wanted and prayed for your children.  They will bless us and challenge us just as your children have blessed and challenged you.

Thank you in advance for being understanding and sensitive!